Confronted

The other shoe has fallen.

I took a big chance when I wrote A Moment of Serious. 

I was sure it wouldn’t be read by the person I was writing about.

I was wrong.

Last night I was confronted about my writing and some other things.

I defended myself saying that “it’s my blog, I can write what I please”.

It got worse from there.

Tempers were flaring, emotions were running high and a lot of thing were said. 

I will not divulge any of it. 

I’ll just state that the entire episode was. not. pretty.

It kind of reminds me of something you’d see on Cops.

I know, I know…that’s bad. 

And I’m not trying to make light of the subject…it just helps me deal a little better, mkay?

I can’t (and won’t) speak for anyone else involved, but I will say that I acted totally out of character, and actually am quite ashamed of some of the things that I said.

I am normally a pretty calm and levelheaded person (at least I think so).

But something came over me last night.

Pride?

Self preservation?

Stubborness?

Bitchiness?

Rage?

It was probably a little bit of everything.

I was “transformed” into a mere shadow of my true self, a side of me that doesn’t see the light of day very often, a side that, more often than not, gets me into trouble.

The whole debacle left me feeling sick to my stomach and ridden with guilt. 

But, I have to say that I think that I am more upset with the way that I acted more than anything else.

Let me tell you, for the sake of everyone involved, I really wish things would have turned out differently.

That’s all I have to say about that.